Title...I don't need no stinkin' title...

A blog is apparently like all of those empty journals that I think are cool and beautiful. Blank like notebooks on the first day of school, they beckon like sirens, but apparently I am immune to the siren song.  I go for months, years in fact, not writing a damn thing. Writing is such a healthy and wonderful thing to do. And yet like exercise I resist it. I will make no vows. I will not TRY to do it. For in my hypnosis class I learned that to TRY means to attempt before failure. I won't do that. (Meat Loaf in my head....NO, I won't do that!) I will just DO IT or not do it.  I won't apply pressure.  I will not SHOULD myself into it.  I will evolve into a healthy writing, exercising, good to myself being or I will remain an unapologetic slug.

Wow.....I have a blog.

I inadvertently re-discovered the blog that I started way back in August of 2007. I am still making it in the work a day world. Being a self-employed childcare provider has its financial ups and downs, but I love it. I don't know that anyone will ever read this, but it is a good exercise. The thing that impressed me most is that my goal nearly 5 years ago was to write two times a day and I rarely write even once a day. It is a muscle that I have neglected. Along with most of my others. Walked in the Easter Parade yesterday and though I am not so sore as I thought I might be, it took a full 15 hours of sleep before I was rested. It was a ton of fun though. Note to self: write more, walk more, enjoy life more.

The first day of the rest of your life...

What a great day! The heat wave was over. I worked in the garden for the first time in a long time. I felt so perfectly wonderful. Now my body has that worked out feeling. There are a pair of ruby throated hummingbirds that are feeding in my yard. I really had more hummingbird sightings today than the rest of my in life combined. I looked up the symbolism of hummingbirds on a website. Hummingbird: joy, pure love, celebration of life. How wonderful is that? I went to the bank and talked to a woman I have known for 30 years about expanding our equiline. She knows me well and even though she knew I was looking for work (I gave her my new cards.) she said she would keep that info under her hat. I told her that I would take my RN and actually work in the hospital if I had to (while acting like I was vomiting). I told her that I was confident that I would find work right away. And I really meant it. In the meantime I will enjoy the time off, as I haven't had a vacation in quite a long time. It is so comforting to have the time to catch up on things that you never have time to get to when you get home from work and you are just too tired and too time deficient. I cleaned under my refrigerator, took care of an insurance problem and ordered up some freebie business cards from my very great friend Darci and her significant other who works at Kinko's--after I finally figured out how to email her the file. I wrote in my journal this morning. I have been back to writing the morning pages for over a week now. It is good to get back to it. In the morning the defenses are down and the truth pours out. My goal is to write the a.m. pages and to blog in the evening. Tomorrow is going to be another great day. Gardening and projects. Rest and relaxation. But for right now I am going to watch The Closer. I love that show.